Fear, Fright, Sorrow..

Hey, im here again. I dont feel like im enjoying myself during this hols. Im not sure why, and why i think this hols just fly off like that? I want longer hols, i dont want to go back to school. This sat church got christmas party or something, i wanted to go but im not sure i can go anot. And next week i need to go to school to take my exam slip. I hope i can obtain good results like what i wanted. But im also not sure i can go anot. It all depends tomorrow. I hope i will be fine. I hope its just a small problem and i dont need to suffer. I dont want the pain.. i dont want to spend money.. i just want to be healthy.. i want to be like a normal person. Why cant i just grow up like a normal girl? Why must i suffer all this? Why must i have all this problem? I hope i will be fine. I hope it wont happen. I hope i can just shake off these problems. WHY? WHY? WHY? Why must it be me? Its all for today.