Sorry i left you blog!

Hey guys.. im back again! One week frm now, form 5 of year 2011 is going to sit for SPM and i believe many of us are nervous about it. Its the last exam of high skul if we dont count form 6 bcuz not everyone will be taking form 6. Im scare of my sejarah bcuz i have no clue of wat it is crapping about but i wan an A for it! To MR SEJARAH: Im gonna kill you during SPM and not going to let you kill me instead! Mark my words! My mood is going up and down all the time mainly bcuz many things had happened in this year and year 2011 isnt a very good year for our family. The only good thing is dat there's a newborn baby in the house and she's very energetic. Babies juz wont get tired. Bsides dat, its been a bad year bcuz my mum was not feeling well for the past few months and was admitted into hosp for around 1 month. And during dat period, my dad left us. He was not feeling well for 1 or 2 months and suddenly he complained he cant breathe. And thats it.. we're separated. Wat is left is the memories he gave us and we can only see him through photos but he aint someone who loves to take pictures so there isnt much photos of him. I missed him and wanted him back!! But i know that everyone will have to leave this world some day and we'll meet once again! Bcuz of wat had happened, i neglected my studies and am not prepared for my SPM. But I will do my best and leave the rest to God! I believe when there's a will, there's a way. I hope everything will turn out fine! *fingers crossed. Goodluck to all SPM candidate 2011! All the best and God bless!

Happy Bday To Me!!

Hi everyone, its 1st of July! means its the day i was born on this earth for the 17th year. All praises and glory to God and thx to my parents for bringing me up till this day. B4 my day ends, i wanna wish myself Happy Bday!

痛苦的生活。。

这是我第一次用华语写部落格，因为我觉得此时只有华语能写出我的感觉，我的不自在。我觉得我很失败，活了17年想不起我做过一件有意义的事。。觉得人生没什么好留念的，只不过是白活了。可能有些人觉得我似乎没有烦恼，但我的烦恼要跟你讲吗？我的不开心讲了难道有帮助吗？讲了只不过是多一个人烦恼，不如我一人受就好了。你曾想过为什么一个人要当小丑吗? 他逗你开心可是他的内心是怎样你又知道吗？不知情的人只会加盐加醋，从没想过为何他会那样。。平时讲话，大家只会说我讲太多了，当我想闭口听你们讲，你们好像不习惯我不讲话，一定要强逼我讲话。讲多错多，不讲话没人会说你哑巴。这句话听得多但当我不讲话你们就会说我没用，不敢讲话。我只不过是不会呈现自己，有时你们没告诉我哪句不能说我把它说了，你们责怪我。不说也骂我怎么不说。到底想我怎样？做人好为难，不说谎有罪吗？想做一个好孩子更是难了，总会有人处处找你麻烦，要你放弃。这是不是神给我的一个考验？我有本事与恶魔战斗下去吗？我会是胜利者吗？有些事情我不懂怎么说，我希望这个感觉可以离我而去，但是它好像要赢了，我打胜仗的机会好像只有10%。我知道死不是解决的方法，但是我能做什么？学业，朋友，家人，健康似乎都在于我打战，我觉得人生很痛苦，可是人生不是一场戏，喊停就停，我只好选择逃避。。

What a dead blog!!

My blog is damn damn dead lar. nothing much. I went empire today for lunch. Kenny Roger's pasta n chicken thingie. The set includes a quarter chicken, pasta n 1 side dish. The waiter was taking our order n yi ling was the 1st one to order. Its damn funny lar. she's like juz out from the kampung. Here's how it goes.

Yi Ling : I want this set. * points to the chicken pasta set.
Waitress: Do u want original or black pepper?
YL : Original.
Waitress: The pasta flavour?
YL: Chicken chezzy.
Waitress: What abt the side dish??
YL: Erm.. i dun wan side dish.
Waitress: *face like 'wth??!!'
Everyone: Its included already lar. why u dun wan??
YL: Ooh.. really ar... erm erm erm.. i want macaroni n cheese lar.
Waitress: *write down the rest of the order.

Thats how it goes. Everyone was like 'u dunno how to see the menu ar??' Its included lar miss. then she kena zha for the whole lunch. We were laughing n laughing abt her. After lunch, 'they' decided to go summit. we ride minibus. it went to pyramid 1st. then we were like ' ok lar, pyramid also nvm', then everyone went pyramid. went to the cinema 1st but the movies were either full or timing not suitable. then we were lepak-ing. YL n HQ went to a dessert corner n ate their ice cream. Me, XS n YQ went the toilet concept shop for ice cream too. Mine suck lar. It writes there cocovanilla but they juz gave me chocolate. too bitter lar. i dun like. After desserts we went shopping around. I bought a mouse at digital centre and then went mcd for coke. Then end up at Daiso shopping for stuff. I bought an earphone extension thing bcuz my stupid earphone was too short. N one thingie shape like a weight but fill wiv orang n blue balls. u gotta shift the balls to one side according to their colours respectively. I took me like 5-10 mins to get it done. quite easy lar i gotta say. thats all for today. c ya!!

Finally the blog is alive again!!

Hi, since im free today i decided to write something short. As usual my life is kinda bored with the daily routine such as school, tuition and comp. not much lar actually, but getting use to it now. Oh and btw, my mood is good now cuz its my bday!! Haha, im officially 16 ppl. not a kid but a teenager. although i dun look like one n i know dat. you dun needa tell me once more. My mood was happy until i say dat stupid thingie in my room. dunno how it fly or crawl or watever it moves into my room. my room is always clean although abit messy but how did dat crockroach went in? Im scare then i call my mum to kill it or watever cuz its one of my phoebias but she dun care abt me and continue to sleep. Now dat dirty brown stuff is still in my room and i dunno where it went. Gotta sleep now. I hope it wont kacau me when im sleeping. Gonna pull my blanket over my head and hold it real tight. Serious dun wan dat stupid crockroach to come near me. Wish me luck ppl, gudbye!!

Days are getting bored..

Hey, back frm school juz now. Hari Kecemerlangan is like wasting my time. How i wish to juz take the cert and go. Its so hot in de dewan n damn bored. Luckily im not prefects, they're worst. Need to wear blazer. lol. The food i dun really like lar, n i dun feel like eating also. Got kuih, dunno wat tart, mihun n sandwich. My favourite is de sandwich lor. Nothing else. De drink is ok. Then after makan, i quickly run away. Haha. Too many teachers adi. Dun really like to be in a place full of teachers, except normal school day lar. Cannot run anywhere also. Why we need to go school? Its like im wasting my time there. I don't have enough sleep ler. My eyes are getting darker n darker and soon i'll be in China to be kept secretly(panda mar). The only day i like is fri cuz got chinese society and badminton. Badminton is fun!! But is damn tiring ler. And i missed out lots of things nowadays. Cant keep up with nic's latest information adi. Im like in the tamadun awal manusia ler. I dun like ppl asking me wat sub i like best and my ambition or watever cuz i seriously dunno. K, i give rumusan.

BM- karangan too long for me.
BI- tenses are hard.
BC- dislike it and dislike the teacher more.
Add maths- teacher blur so make me blur.
Mod maths- HARD!! why do we need to learn this anyway? Its not maths lar, halo!!
SJ- hate this sub. useless.
Bio- getting harder now. teachers are not helping.
Chem- memorising is hard. teachers making it lagi hard.
Physics- its my worst sub. can't understand a thing.
Moral- also memorising sub. Nilai is different frm common sense.

So basically, the subs are hard and the teachers are annoying. I juz hate them. So u think i should like which one ler??

Juz to update nia. Yi ling was saying i stop my post at the mcd thing.

Another day..

Hey, i done yesterday's task. i watched till ep 15 b4 i go out. Then discuss de moral esei at mcd. Actually everyone is giving idea but lydia sits around using ebuddy to chat. and makes my phone so hot ler. lol. she juz take our point our nilai and our paper, then copy paste nia. like that then finish her day adi lor. yi ling is the first one to go, then me, the de rest i dunno. back home also watch my dog show. and i finish the whole drama. so dats hols for me. and i think 2molo have to start my work. stacks n stacks of hw and essays waiting for me to do and i dun even know where to start. Can anyone give me a clue or something? Haiz.. 2molo got tuition somemore lar. lame teacher, hols also give tuition for wat? its a win win situation if u dun give tuition. u can rest we can rest. u save electricity we save fuel. so why tuition? haizz... its 1 am now. so its time for bed. nitezz everyone!!